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Wednesday, June 28th, 2006
9:27 am	Well, I finally got a second job! yay! It's at the bookstore on campus. It's shitty pay..but the job is going to be pretty sweet. It will be weird when all of my friends are buying their books...from me. whatever. I need the extra cash. I don't feel like going to work....I think i'm going to quit. Well, I probably won't...because I do need the money. It just sucks as a job. I'm not getting enough hours. I can't wait to go to Myrtle Beach! I just hope Jac can go with me...cause I can't drive that eight hours by myself. I'm just crossing my fingers right now. Ahhhh I guess I need to get ready....and possibly wake up my roommate...I love playing mom around the house! :\ (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 27th, 2006
9:20 am	Eh...not feeling well....shouldn't have drank last night...I don't think it agreed with my meds. Today I have an interview at the campus bookstore. I'm sure I can get the job...but the money is not good. But I figure six bucks an hour full time plus my pay from three or four days at Cress Creek will work out nicely. But then there goes my "social life." But I surely need the money. My dad is starting to get a little upset with me not paying my bills and stuff.. I need to find a guy to be my new "boo" as some of our friends would say. haha. Alright, I need to work some things out for the semester... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 13th, 2006
11:46 am	Me and my roommates were suppose to go to OC for the day yesterday and since the weather wasn't going to be that good...we decided not to go. Well, they checked the weather and noticed that the weather for today would be great...so they decided to go down. Didn't even bother to ask me if this would upset me since they know I couldn't go because I have to work at four. Now, I know this may seem a little childish but I would have tried to pick a day when no one had to work and we could all go down together since that was the plan from the get go. I guess you can't win them all. But i'm still kinda diappointed. And lately, I think Megan is being really distant. Ever since her and travis broke up. Oh well, I can't wait for July to come so that I can go to the beach. I need to get away for a week or so. I just hope Jaclyn can come with me!! Or else, i'll be going down just me...no friend. Which will totally suck... I need to clean the house, since no one else will. It's a mess...the sink is full of dishes BLAH! I want to go running again today. I feel so lonely...not just today but for about the past month... I want to go home soon for a few days...and i'm not talking about fathers day or when I go home to get my wisdom teeth out...just a few days to hang out and see my friends. Current Mood: lonely Current Music: tim mcgraw (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 7th, 2006
8:33 pm	I'm so VERY bored! I have nothing to do and right now wish I did. I've been awake since 3:45am...worked...made no money. SUCKS! Hopefully this weekend will be better. Monday me and the roomies are going to OC for the day...I probably shouldn't but whatever. I'm still so broke. I get paid more then enough every week and I still end up with nothing by the end of the next week. And what am I spending it on? I'm not even sure. But i'm working more hours next week so that will be good...then in two weeks I get my wisdom teeth taken out :-( I'm not excited about it all...but who would be? I need to find something to do...i'm so bored. I'm going to try to find something to do. Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Friday, May 19th, 2006
8:53 pm	WOW! I seriously haven't written on this thing in FOREVER! I basically forgot about it....but i'm back now. I probably will only update this thing very rarely. I'm feeling lonely....Most of my friends are in relationships. And the only two girls I hang out with at home, are in serious relationships. Me? Not so much. I don't even have any prospects. Yes, being single has it ups...but it's getting old. I want something different, and that something different is a boy. But I am living in the smallest town EVER! So, the pickins are slim. Anyways...I moved into a townhouse about a mile from school. I'm loving it so far. My roommates and I have been making some really good meals. But i'm broke. And I have this new job...as a server at a country club. So it's good money, but I haven't been getting good hours...so i'm going to look for a second job on monday once I return from home. Speaking of home...i'm going home again tomorrow afternoon until monday morning. And the reason I have been reminded of my lonliness lately is because of Mike. Yes, that's Mike, again. He out of the blue IMed me a few nights ago and asked why I haven't called/IMed him. Well, maybe because the last time we were "dating" you randomly stopped talking to me and even calling. I was so crushed and with no closure, my feelings never ceased. He asked if I would want to see a movie this weekend when I got home. I told him we could possibly hang out...so I talked to my sister and Jaclyn about this. They said I should not hang out with him because he is probably rebounding after his last girlfriend. And they don't want to see me get hurt again. And I don't want to either...I mean who would WANT that? So I feel like I shouldn't...I know I shouldn't but I can't help the fact that deep down I do have feelings for him. He was a guy I could see myself being with for a long time. I thought we went well together and had a good relationship. And I know that if I hang out with him, my feelings will come right back. I don't think I could hang out with him just as friends. I just don't think it's possible. I don't know...i'm torn about the situation. I should probably just go to the party my sister invited me to. Ugh. I just wish I could find a new guy. Who doesn't really know any of the same people that I do. Well, I've written more in the past few minutes than I have in probably the past year. haha. Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Monday, July 25th, 2005
7:48 pm	I'm crushed. Really upset. Haven't felt this low about a guy in a really long time. I hate that Mike and I aren't hanging out anymore. I hate that he just stopped hanging out with me and calling me. I mean I know this kinda stuff happens...but it sucks. Maybe this is what I'm getting for being such a jerk to guys that show interest in me. I don't know. I'm sad. On a brighter note...I applied to the ESPN Zone today. And tomorrow i'm going to talk to someone at Lucielles and going to a few places in Canton. I hope I find a job soon! Something new. That's all... Current Mood: rejected (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 11th, 2005
11:33 pm	Well, I still can't seem to update this thing. But I need to get some thoughts out of my head before it burts! I've been so BUSY the past two weeks and I don't understand how I can be so lonely when I don't even have time to think about what i'm doing. I am not going back to Shepherd in the fall, for those of you who don't know. I am currently in bartending school and love it! It's so much fun! It's actually pretty hard. A lot of stuff to remember. I know the job will be hard but I think it will be worth it and I think it will pay off. :-) Since my last entry, Mike and I have not continued talking. Probably the biggest upset for me in a LONG time. You know, I tried to be tough when we didn't talk that much or hang out that much, but it hurt/s so bad. I thought with me being home...it would be like last summer. Together a lot, having fun, going out...being together. I'm fine with not being with him...what I can't let go of is the fact that there is absolutely no closure for me...which I always need. He just kinda told me that we were just friends and he didn't want a serious relationship..after I forced it out of him..but then he stopped calling all together. There was a few people that were really excited when they found out I wasn't going back to Shepherd...and he was one of them. I don't understand why he would be so excited for me to come home and then all of a sudden stopped talking to me all together. It sucks. And it hurts. Ugh. I hate this feeling....having so many questions and no way to get the answers. I don't want to be one of those girls that gets hung up on someone...especially someone they didn't date that long...but for some reason, I can't stop thinking about him or the situation. I always wonder if he started dating someone else? Decided I was too young? Just lost interest? Oh well...i'm just trying to learn how to let go...but it's really tough for me. Not to dwell on my non-existent boy situation, but there is something I just really don't get. There are so many people, guys and girls, who tell me how pretty/beautiful/fun/awesome I am but is there not a guy who wants that in someone they date? It makes no sense. Blah. I hate being single sometimes. Seems like all the people close to me are happy with someone else and I'm not. That's not a reason to not be single anymore but it sucks being the 5th wheel. I think one of the reasons I've been feeling like this is because I'm kind of in a weird situation. I'm now home for good..but only have a few friends here. I'm trying to get in touch with old friends but I've been so busy. Anyways! On a happier note....i'm going to the beach in 4 days! Can NOT wait! It's going to be the most needed vaca! After two weeks of non stop on the go....i'm ready to do nothing but sit on the beach in sunny south carolina for a whole week with the fam! I need to do my bartending homework, I just don't feel like it though...i'm def. not in the mood. I've got too much on my mind! Alright...I guess this is all for now...i should probably try and get some sleep. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 31st, 2005
1:23 pm	...going on two months... It's going on two months since i've updated. A lot has happened. School end, and i'm home for the summer now. SO excited about that! I'm most likely not going back to Shepherd anymore. I plan on taking a bartending class in july and hopefully i will be bartending by the beginning of august! I'll be at Essex in the fall and hopefully UofB in the spring. I just need to get things finalized. I haven't been doing much since I've been home but working. I want to move out, but don't have any money for that. Surely I wish I did! I'm bored, as I always am lately. Mike and I are talking again, I think. I'm not sure. I haven't seen him since two saturdays ago and we talk about every 2 days for about 5 minutes. Makes me really sad. haha Last summer we were always together. This summer, the complete opposite. And I know I like him a lot because I can't really say anything, like stand up for myself. I always tell Jess and Jaclyn that i'm going to say something to him, how I hate that I feel like i'm waiting around and I feel like he doesn't want to hang out with me, but everytime I try...I just let it go. I don't know why. Whatevs. I'm not going to let myself stress over it. As they say, i'm not going to waste my time on someone who isn't going to waste their time on me! That's all for now. Maybe i'll start updating this thing more often... Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 1st, 2005
1:55 pm	I feel like complete poo! I forgot my birth control when I went home this weekend...so I missed three days....woke up this morning with the worst period ever! I can't even sit without being uncomfortable. I just want to go back to bed and just sleep for a couple of hours. But I can't do that. Nope. I have so much work to do. Crazy. Need to study all night tonight....sucks that I have class. Speaking of class, I wish my teacher would reply to my e-mail. I can't wait for Jaclyn to come visit. I'm so excited. We're going shopping! Hopefully i'll have enough money to buy some things. That would be nice. Then we're going to drink with all the Shep kids! She is going to have a blast! So Shepherd is so retarded. Seriously. Snow days are nice, but they just used them up in less than one week. Which means, even if there is 7 inches on the roads tomorrow when we wake up, we will have class, since our two snow days are already gone; along with our spring recess. Grrr. Stupid school. Whatever. 10 days til the beach! Can't wait for that either! I have two tests next week, so it will be nice getting a long break from all of this going on. It's going to be one crazy week. We are going down for 8 days too. It's going to be awesome. Alright, I need to start studying! I have a mid-term tomorrow!! Current Mood: sick (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 23rd, 2005
10:13 am	I got one of my tests back today....in probably the hardest class I am taking this semester....74...not the greatest, but I think i'm satisfied. I have time to work on my studies and bring it up. I think i'm going through a rough spot right now. I can't seem to find the motivation to do my school work. I get it done, but I feel that it isn't up to the standard that it should be up to. Boys are a huge mess for me...there are none...which makes me sad....but I guess I should just embrace not having the drama to deal with, and the distance which comes with living in two places...and just take the time to improve myself and my school work. And also, this summer, I'm either trying to work and take some summer classes, or work and try to get an internship somewhere. That would be ideal as of right now. I need to start doing something with this major of mine. The roommate thing is bothering me too. As always. I just can't seem to get along with her. She is an awesome person, outside of living with her. But it doesn't help that we are roommates and in the same sorority. She always bring the things that happen within the sorority back to our room, which in return creates tension in our room, because we always disagree, and then it goes right back to the sorority...and it all seems to be a horrible cycle. Jenna, Amanda, and I all agree that we can't wait until next semester when it is Tina, Amanda, Jenna, and myself. Except, it is going to be hard to try and force ourselves to do wrok. I guess i'll just live in the library again... I can't wait to go home this weekend and see my sister again. And hang out with Jaclyn. Haven't done that in a while. Going to possibly teach her how to make puffy letters. It's going to be nice to be able to go home this weekend and not JUST work...to spend time with my family and friends. Because even though I go home a lot, I usually just work, then go home and sleep or something. I don't know what else to write...I think that's all. Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005
4:17 pm	It makes me so mad that after all of last semester... I walk to lunch and here he comes...with her...out of his dorm... Interesting I must say...this is the one he has been calling pshycho for the longest time. Should have seen it coming...i'm so stupid sometimes. I swear, I have the worst luck with boys. That happened, and this past weekend I decided that Mike and I are not for each other. He made me really upset friday on the phone while I was driving home so I told him he made me upset and I was getting off of the phone...he just said, "ok, bye" wtf. I don't know. Makes me angry. Anyways. so then we didn't see each other all weekend and when I asked him about it, he was short with me and jsut pissed me off. we are obviously two different people going in two different directions. bastard. Doesn't make any sense to me. Even my boss said, "I don't understand why you have all of this boy drama...you are the type of girls a guy would like to take home to their parents. going to college, having future plans, having a good family background, and you don't dress like a slut or parade around your party stories" I don't get it either. ANYWAYS...on a good note! Jaclyn is coming to visit in two weeks! It's seriously going to be awesome. I'm having everyone come over to party with me and her. It's going to a blast! And hopefully i'll have some money to go shopping with! Alright, time to go meet anna for dinner and qt...then go to class :( Current Mood: annoyed (Comment on this)
Monday, February 21st, 2005
2:34 pm	loooonnng survey! Known as: Megan, Megs, D, Dix, Dixiepoo...something along those lines Gender: Female Age: 19 Lives in: a mixture of Baltimore and Shepherdstown Birthday: October 8, 1985 School: Shepherd University Ethnicity: English, Dutch, Irish...basically, as white as they come! Hair color: Brownish with a redish tint Eye color: Blue/Gray Style: preppy/girly/trendy? I don't know how to describe it. I wear what I like. Fears: Bugs, rejection, death SECTiON 2 HAVE YOU EVER... Cheated on someone? Yes, i've kissed someone before while having a bf. Fallen off the bed? Oh of course. Fallen for a relative? I may live in West Virginia...but no... Broken someone`s heart? Yes, so i've been told. Had your heart broken? Too many times. Had a dream come true? They were realistic...so yes. But I have a few i'm waiting to come true in the future. Done something you regret? There are a VERY select few. Cheated on a test? Definitely SECTION 3 CURRENTLY... Wearing? My preppiest outfit ever! Brown boots, jeans, white collar shirt with yellow Abercrombie sweater over top...the icing on the cake? Pearls. Listening to? Rascal Flats...i've been on a country kick lately. Reading? Only things I have to read for classes Located? In my dorm. Chatting with? no one Watching? computer screen Should REALLY be doing? English paper SECTiON 4 DO YOU... Brush your teeth? why yes, yes I do Like anybody? Not really right now....suprisingly Have any piercings? Ears twice and I have my belly button done Believe in Santa Claus? I use to. But not anymore. When your parents and Santa have the same hand writing...it kinda gives it away. Got a cellphone? yes Got a pager? no. I didn't know they still existed for people other than doctors? SECTION 5 FRIENDS... Who is your best? My sister, Jaclyn, Sara Whom do you hate? no one really smartest? lauren, catherine...a lot of others too...wow. makes me feel really dumb. funniest? jenna...ashleigh....venus, ...the boys are hilarious! Who is the shyest? weaver, my sister Who is the most talkative? which ones aren't??? Who is the cutest? all of my friends are cute...seriously... Who laughs the most? tough one...i think i might! well giggle the most at least Who have you known the longest? obviously my sister...other than that...sara Who have you known the shortest? renee Whom do you miss the most? my sister, jac, and sara Who do you turn to for personal problems? my sister, my sorority sisters, parents, jac and sara...well, that seems like everyone...i wear my heart on my sleeve so everyone knows when i'm having problems Do you hang out with the opposite sex? indeed Do you trust your friends? yes Are you a good friend? I try to be. Can you keep a secret? Yes, I can if I need to. SECTION 6 THE LAST PERSON YOU... Hugged? One of the girls last night. renee? Kissed? oh...yeah.... IMed? not sure? Talked to on the phone? Lauren Yelled at? Mike...bastard! Fell in love with? ........???? Told You Loved? I think my sister. SECTION 7 PERSONAL... What do you want to be when you grow up? Happy, a wife, a mother, successful...among lots of other things. What has been the best day of your life? Can't even pick one. I've seriously had an awesome life thus far. What comes first in your life? Family and friends. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? nah not really. What are you most scared of? rejection and death. What do you usually think about before you go to bed? I usually reflect what has happened in the past day or what I need to get done in the following day Did you lose someone you really loved? well, i've lost a few people that I have deeply cared about. How many times have you fallen deeply in love? eh. i'm not so sure Love your family? To the fullest. Love your friends? Indeed. They each mean so much to me. Have you fought? Of course...but it's always followed by the making up. SECTiON 8 FAVORITE... Movie: Dazed and Confused, I Am Sam, there are SO many more! Song: I'm Just A Girl...no doubt For the longest time...bill joel... tons of others too!! Group: Beatles, Incubus, No Doubt Store: target. all kinds of good stuff in one place for a cheap price! I bet everyone thought I was going to say something like wet seal or some other trendy/girly store, huh? Relative: my sister of course Sport: cheerleading Ice Cream Flavor: ben and jerrys half baked. or phish food. Fruit: apples and bananas Candy: swedish fish/gummy bears Holiday: christmas Day of the Week: the weekends Color: pink Name for a Girl: Mackenzie Name for a Boy: Nathan Favorite spot for a date: hmmmm I'm not sure Quote: ....don't have one.... SECTiON 9 DO YOU... Like to give hugs? if they are needed, yes. Like to give kisses? they are my favorite! Like to walk in the rain? until i get the feeling of a wet dog Prefer black or blue pens? blue Like to travel? yes. Sleep on your side, tummy or back? eh. i'm constantly moving while sleeping...so i'll say all three Think you're attractive? I guess so Have a goldfish? use to Ever have the falling dream? yep...scares me sometimes SECTION 10 WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT... Abortion: I believe in pro choice completely. No one has the right to tell me that it's wrong. Because the very person that tells me that is the one going out drinking and driving...which is wrong as well. But I do not agree with using abortion as a birth control. Bill Clinton: I don't have a problem with him. What he does in his personal life is his business. End of story. Smoking: Smoking cigarettes...Hate it. Fills my lungs and makes me feel like I can't breathe, which happens to be a horrible feeling. Eating Disorders: Well, I don't get them. I don't understand. Why would someone want to do that to themselves? What could possibly get into someones mind and make them think by not eating they will becoming more attractive since they will end up being stickly? Baffles me. Suicide: I don't get this one either. What could be so bad that you need to completely end yourself to get rid of it? Summer: Tank tops/ tans/ Beach/ water/ swimming Tattoos: Meaningful to some/ trashy on others...i've always wanted one but don't know what I could get on my body that I would want there for the rest of my life. Piercings: Eh. they don't do anything for me. Make-up: love it. it's fun to play with. SECTION 11 THIS OR THAT... Pierced nose or tongue? nose...because it's the the one out of the two that i could see myself doing(which i wont ever) Single or taken? single. wish i wasn't though MTV or BET? VH1 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? niether Sugar or salt? depends what i'm in the mood for Silver or gold? silver...gold sometimes looks trashy too me Chocolate or flowers? hmmm tough one Color or Black-and-white photos? depends. M&M's or Skittles? both! Stay up late or sleep in? again, both Hot or cold? warm Sun or moon? moon. i'm a night person Left or Right? Right 10 Acquaintances or one best friend? one best friend Mustard or ketchup? ketchup! def. ketchup! Spring or Fall? spring Happy or sad? happy Wonder or amazement? amazement McDonald's or Burger King? BK Mexican or Italian food? hmmm either...as long as they don't have huge chucnks of onions/tomatoes/peppers and all that other gross stuff i dont like Lights on or off? Off. Candy or soda? hm.... Pepsi or Coke? Pepsi ...this took forever!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:50 pm	really quick... I just want to say that I think it is very pathetic that some people are SO into their video games that they hook up their laptops...in the hallways of classrooms and bring their CONTROLLERS to play games. Can't you wait until you are back in your room? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
3:59 pm	YAY! Today was suppose to be another day from hell...but it's turned out to be a good one! It's beautiful outside..well, now it looks like it might rain later on. but oh well! I'M GOING TO MYRTLE BEACH STILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-D I seriously couldn't be happier! I have the best parents in the world. They just told me to go to the beach and have fun, and we will work out the money situation later. Ah how I love them! And then panhellenic was cancelled! One less thing I have to do. I should be taking the extra time to study, but nope. I'm allowing myself time to just chill and then ill start studying. alright, that's all. just wanted to update with the good news! (Comment on this)
12:09 pm	It's been awhile! I can't believe how long it has been since I have updated this thing! ...my sister got the first results back from her testing for her baby. Right now everything is normal. They find out by saturday the def. results. I've been so busy lately! Seriously. Classes, sorority stuff every night. It's out of control. And in the next week I have 3 tests, a quiz, 3 papers and a presentation due. I will be living in the library. Recruitment is going so well. We want all of the girls! :-) They seem to all be taking a liking towards us too! It's such an awesome feeling! I'm not sure what is going on with Mike and I. We barely talk anymore...there is no time to, we have conflicting schedules, and even when we can talk, it's not for long. It doesn't help he goes to bed by 10:30-11 every night, unless he goes out. I think right now, we just need to end whatever is going on. Maybe we should be together, but not right now. We'll see. I feel like lately I always want something that I can't have...I mean a lot of people feel like this, but it's getting more frequent. I don't know. I don't know what I am doing with myself. I feel like one big stress ball. I don't know if Myrtle Beach is going to happen for me. I don't have the money to go on this trip and pay my bills. It's just too much right now. I'm hoping I can work something out. But we'll just have to see! Everyone is saying I HAVE to go. I seriously love them! Horty tried telling me that if I don't go, then he won't, so I won't feel bad about not being able to go. That's a good friend. Even though I know he is complete bullshit. lol. Whatever...time for the never ending reading to begin!!! Current Mood: busy (Comment on this)
Friday, February 4th, 2005
9:59 am	Stolen! LAST PERSON WHO... 1. Slept in your bed: Rob 2. Saw you cry: the roomies 3. Made you cry: my sister...with the news of her baby 4. Spent the night with you: Rob 5. You shared a drink with: ??? 6. You went to the movies with: Mike 7. You went to the mall with: my Jollie! 8. Yelled at you:. hmmmm not sure 9. Sent you an email: Liz 10. You kissed: Rob HAVE YOU EVER... 11. Said "I Love You" and meant it: eh i thought so 12. Gotten in a fight with your pet(s): eh it wasn't a fight. 13. Been to New York: yes 14. Been to Florida: yes 15. Been to California: no 16. Been to Hawaii: No 17. Been to Mexico: no 18. Been to China: no 19. Been to Canada: yep 20. Danced naked: i probably have... 21. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: I've had that happen but i'm pretty sure it wasn't crazy 22. Wish you were the opposite sex: I used to. So I wouldn't have to get my period 23. Had an imaginary friend: maybe when I was little RANDOM 24. Red or blue: Red 25. Spring or Fall: Spring 26. Are you bored: i'm just REALLY tired 27. Last noise you heard: people here in the library typing 28. Last time you went out of the state: technically I am out of state...but I went to hagerstown, MD 29. Things you like in a girl/guy: the way they dress, their smile... 30. Do you have a crush on someone: crush? yes 31. What book are you reading now: i'm not reading any books 32. Worst feeling in the world: that's a hard one to decide on 33. What is the first thing you think when you wake up: i'm still drunk OR i'm way to hungover to go to class.....that's not all the time though! 34. How many rings before you answer: usually about 2 APPARENTLY SARAH'S FRIEND DIDNT LIKE THE NEXT 2 37. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no 38. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be: a successful tv producer....maybe for some show like oprah! how awesome would that be?! 39. Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous: righty 40. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys: most of the time 41. What's under your bed: empty boxes, some shoes, duffel bags 42. Favorite sport to watch: cheerleading. 43. What was the first sandwhich you remember eating? ham and cheese 44. Siblings: jess and brian 45. Location: shepherdstown, WV 46. College plans: two and a half years to go 47. Piercings: ears and belly button 48. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: nah. EXTRA STUFF 49. Do you do drugs: not recently 50. Do you drink: yes 51. Who is your best friend: jaclyn/sara/and my sister 52. What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use: right now...dove 53. What are you most scared of: ghosts! 54. What clothes do you sleep in: whatever i pass out in. usually a t-shirt 55. Who is the last person who called you: romeo? 56. Where do you want to get married: don't know. 57. Who do you really hate: eh... 58. Favorite number: 8 59. Been in Love?: yeah....i think so 61. Are you timely or always late: always on time! 62. Do you have a job: yeah 63. Do you like being around people: yes 64. Best feeling in the world: being successful 65. Are you for world peace: yeah 66. Are you a health freak: nope STUFF 67. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: yes... 68. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: yeah 69. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: nope. i like a variety of guys... 70. Want someone you don't have right now: yeah 71. Are you lonely right now: not really 72. Ever afraid you'll never get married: yes! i always tell people i will most likely end up alone and being the cat lady :( 73. Do you want to get married: yes 74. Do you want kids/if yes, how many: eh. i'll take 3 please. FAVORITE 75. Room in house: family room 76. Type(s) of music:i like almost all of it 77. Band: beatles/incubus/NO DOUBT! 78. Memory: hmmm there are alot of them! 79. Day of the week: this is a hard one... 80. Color: pink 81. Perfume or cologne: givenchy 82. Month: dunno IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU... 83. Cried: dont think so 84. Bought something: yep 85. Gotten sick: no 86. Sang: of course 87. Said "I Love You": to jenna :) 88. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: i did! 89. Met someone new: yes. ryan. 90. Moved on: don't need to move on right now... 91. Talked to someone: Yes 92. Missed someone: yes 93. Hugged someone: i dont think so.... 94. Kissed someone: yeah 95. Fought with your parents: i actually haven't talked to them in like 3 days...unusual 97. Had a lot of sleep: no! i got like three hours(max) last night and not much more then that the night before. HAVE YOU EVER 98. been drunk: hahahahha. silly question. yes 99. smoked pot: yeah 100. kissed a member of the opposite sex: yes (Comment on this)
Friday, January 28th, 2005
12:46 pm	So cold outside! It's unbearable. Seriously. I hate it. Anyways, heard some horrible news about my sisters baby. Well, first of all, she found out it's def. a girl! But the baby is developing slowly, so she is small compared to how she should be. Then they think she will either have hernias when she is born, or could be born with a disorder. Either down syndrome, or something worse, but I forget the name. But if she is born with the worse disorder, she won't live to see her first birthday. It just breaks my heart that my sister is going through all of this pain to just take care of the baby, and it's going to have some kind of defect. It's hard to take. My sister is going to have an amnio done in two weeks, but then she will have to wait it out. They even gave her the option of terminating...that's how serious this is. I can't wait to go home today and see her. I miss her!! Other than that...things are going pretty good. I got super wasted on tuesday and wednesday with my favorite people! I don't remember some of the stuff that happened tuesday night....hahahaha!! Then wednesday we decided to go to tonys after we got wasted, and the bouncer was harrassing me(sort of) and I decided to make the 10-15 minute walk home...by myself...in a tank top. Now I know why I'm always sick. I don't keep myself warm enough! lol Going home today after my next class. I need to get my phone fixed asap! So Mike said he would go with me tomorrow afternoon, but i'm thinking about going today...just to get it out of the way. I want to get my hair cut too. Eh. Who knows. So, we are def. going to Myrtle Beach for spring break! It's going to be SOOO much fun! Me, Jenna, Amanda, Megan, Amy and Tina. Then of course all of our boys are going down. Horty, JR, Wilmot, Rob, Bitner, Cheese and Bauserman. It's going to be ridiculous. We aren't staying together...but we all know we are going to end up drinking together and hanging out almost every night together. It's seriously going to be insanity. It's all we talk about. But we only got saturday to saturday, so we have to drive to Tinas house in VA for friday night and then leave early saturday morning, and do the same thing on the way back. But we might be taking her moms van. So we'll see. I can't wait. like 43 days to go...but we all want it to start now!! I'm so glad my parents are giving me money to pay my sorority bill so that I can go. I mean, of course I have to pay them back, but that will be fine. Ahhhh. I can't wait!!! But I won't see Mike for like 2-3 weeks in March. Because the day I come back from MB...he leaves for south beach. we'll see how that goes! I guess i'm done...this is a pretty long update...and I never update anymore! Current Mood: excited (4 Comments |Comment on this)
10:03 am	stolen... THREE NAMES YOU GO BY 1. Megan 2. Dix/Dixie 3. D THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD: 1. iloveme2k3 2. lylcutie543 3. something else super gay THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. my eyes 2. my butt 3. my sense of humor THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. the bags under my eyes 2. my laugh 3. i can be a jealous person THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE: 1. irish 2. dutch 3. english THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU: 1. ghosts in my dorm 2. losing people...happening alot lately :-( 3. not finding someone to spend the rest of my life with THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: 1. wallet 2. music 3. car keys THREE THINGS YOU'RE WEARING RIGHT NOW: 1. scarf 2. coat 3. AST shirt THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE MUSIC ARTISTS AT PRESENT: 1. beatles 2. incubus 3. eminem THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT: 1. since you've been gone 2. somebody told me 3. caught up TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order): 1. i love shepherd 2. i need money 3. i love alpha sigma tau THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU: 1. teeth 2. smell 3. the way they dress THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO: 1. draw 2. sing 3. write with my left hand THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: 1. cheerleading 2. shopping 3. playing tennis/crocheting THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW: 1. sleep 2. go shopping 3. get rid of this cold THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: 1. producer 2. a news anchor 3. coordinator of some sort...for like tv/movies/radio THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION: 1. australia 2. italy 3. paris THREE KID'S NAMES: 1. mackenzie 2. madison 3. ???? THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: 1. make lots of money 2. get married 3 travel to different places (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 16th, 2005
10:58 pm	Well, I'm home for the weekend to work...and its's snowing! :-) It's finally winter! ...so far it's been a tough year. 1- Jarrett passed.. 2- My uncle was put in the hospital for blood clots in his leg and they don't know what is wrong with him. 3- A very close friend of my dad(I refer to him as an uncle) was suddenly diagnosed with cancer, and they don't expect him to recover. They have already done one major surgery to take out a major bone in his leg and replace it with a 14 inch rod. 4- My uncle's gf/"life partner"/whatever you want to call her passed the first weekend of the year ...things just aren't going the way they are suppose to... I just can't imagine what is going to be next. So after thinking about it forever...I've decided to apply to Towson...to possibly transfer. I doubt I will get accepted...but I need to keep my options open because right now I'm not sure what I want to do. My heart is at home. I want to be for my sister when she has her baby..even after summer vaca...I want to spend more time with Jaclyn and Sara...and Mike. I want to be able to work and be able to pay my bills without help from my dad. I want to save money so that when I graduate I can either buy a new car or get an apartment. I just don't know right now...things are complicated...and there are too many decisions that need to be made. ...going to bed...work early, then heading back to school. (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 13th, 2005
9:08 pm	"Only the good die young" -Billy Joel So, today was the day. Officially, my first funeral. Seriously. I swear, that was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I know it makes it harder, since I am so close to his family. It's just so hard to say goodbye to someone who was so innocent and had no control over his death. The song in title is true. Only the good die young. I heard that song on the way back to school today. The past two viewings I have gone to were for tennagers younger than 16! That is really hard to take. I was a huge ball of mess this morning. Even last night. I walked in, knowing that there was going to be some pictures of me sitting around. Never could I have imagined how many I really was in. It was crazy. I know that I am close to Jaclyn and her whole family, but this was crazy. And overwhelming as well. To know that I get two families instead of one, is the best thing I could ever imagine. I love them all so much, and i'm so glad they feel the same way! :-) After all the crying...I was so tired...and had the worst headache. And I couldn't take a nap. So i'm not going out tonight. But it makes me feel like such a loner. I haven't done anything since I have been back at school. I have spent more time alone this week, than I have in a long time. And I hate it. Maybe i'm just making this all seem worse than it is because i'm so emotional right now. I don't know what i'm doing with myself. And the worst part is that people are already talking about what their living arrangements will be next year...and it seems like I don't fit in anywhere. Makes me sad. Like i'm not wanted. This is when I start talking about going home next semester...and that is not what I want at all. But who knows. I'm going to do homework, since there is nothing else to do. Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)